October 2010
1 post
I fucking like you
I have no idea what to say right now; my mind is a mess. Are you giving me mixed signals or was I just letting myself get my hopes up high? I can’t believe I’m starting to fall for you again. For some stupid reason, I keep thinking, “Maybe this time it will work out.”
What. The. Fuck.
- A is for Anonymous
September 2010
1 post
Invisible
It has been the longest time since I’ve blogged. I’ve disappeared completely on tumblr for a few months (or is it a few weeks?) but now I’m back.
If only reality was like that. If only I could disappear completely whenever I wanted to, and come back whenever I feel like it. If only.
- A is for Anonymous
July 2010
13 posts
Confessions: #2
It has been two years. Two years since we first laid eyes on each other. I remember the first time I looked at him, I felt something. Not attraction, no, but I felt that he was going to be a part of my life somehow. He showed me affection like no guy ever did, and it made me feel special. I was stupid, I let him go. I fell in love with him after I let him go. To this day, I know that I’ll...
Girl with two faces
You’re really good at acting; you’ve got me fooled for the longest time. Not anymore. I see who you are. You criticize the girls who put on makeup, saying they don’t need it to be pretty. Who’s the girl with the thick line of eyeliner and lip smeared with lipstick? Who’s face is the one obviously covered in blush? It looks to me like you’re the hypocrite. You...
My biggest fear
Do you recall reading in one of my previous posts that it scared me sometimes how I imagine myself being the reason for someone’s death? Want to know my biggest fear? Deep down, I have this feeling sometimes that I’m capable of murder. I try not to think about it, I don’t want it to come true. I can’t help it though. Inside, I have this strong feeling that I really am...
Traitors
You were the ones I could turn to when I felt like all my friends abandoned me, but I guess you did the same. Just because I fucking blew you guys off once. Is it really my fault that I was too tired to hang out with you guys yesterday? Now you make plans and don’t invite me. Not just that, but you guys barely talked to me yesterday after I said no. What. The. FUCK. I hope you all crash and...
Confessions: #1
First confession: I used to carve myself. You’d have to be an idiot to not get what I mean. Except, it wasn’t that bad; I didn’t actually bleed. I’d only press hard enough so it made a mark, so it would penetrate the skin but at the same time, not bleed. Why? At first, it was because I didn’t know what else to do to help me cope with my emotions. I knew my dilemmas...
Angry teenagers
I’m one of them. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not always angry. You don’t want to get on my bad side though. Sometimes, I get so infuriated that it makes me want to kill someone. Sometimes, when I’m so angry at a person, I imagine myself being the reason for their death. It scares me sometimes.
- A is for anonymous
Deceived
It’s like when I’m face to face with you in reality, you’re still my best friend. I’ll tell you what’s up and what’s been going on with my life. But, when I’m not with you, then I hate your guts. I think I finally know why. You see, I don’t want to lose any more friends. I need someone to be there for me. I want someone to be there for me. You know...
Best friends for NEVER
I’ve learned to not believe in best friends. In fact, I think best friends hurt you the most. You’re blinded by your friendship that you don’t see their flaws. What’s so good about seeing their flaws? You might ask. It shows you the real person they can be. I used to have a best friend. I’ve recently realized she was never really there for me at all. Thinking back, I...
“I just wish someone would see how NOT okay I really am.”
– A is for anonymous
I try to do what I can, but I'm feeling destroyed
I think there’s something wrong with me. Every night, I feel depressed. I don’t know if depressed is even the right term to describe it because I know how serious depression is. It’s definitely not sadness though. All my thoughts just overwhelm me and I find myself feeling isolated. I cried for a few minutes awhile ago. I just collapsed on my bed and cried. I don’t know...
Second thoughts
Fuck. There are so many things I just want to get out of my system, but I’m still a little skeptical. I’m scared you all might somehow figure out who I am, but, I made this blog to vent and that’s exactly what I’m going to do.
- A is for anonymous
Got a secret, can you keep it?
If you watch Pretty Little Liars, I guess I can tell you that I got the “A is for anonymous” idea from there. No, my name does NOT start with an A.
Who knows what kind of things will turn up on this blog. There may be secrets, there may be confessions, hate, love… It doesn’t matter because you can’t judge me if you don’t know who I am. That’s what I love...
1 tag
Who are you?
I’m a teenage girl who’s so much more than meets the eye. Nobody takes the time to realize that, though. I’m not saying I’m special, I’m saying I’m not always the content/happy girl I seem to be. There are so many things I have bottled up inside that it kills me.
P.S. I reside in Vancouver, BC and that’s the only thing I’m saying. Will I ever reveal...